03 December, 2008

uneven

How do I get my life in balance???? I’m a teeter-totter; 0 pounds on one end and 100 on the other with the weight sliding from one end to the other’ constantly off balance, but with moments when the weight slowly slides into the middle on its way to the other side. I can keep it there for days, but then it inevitably moves on. I can’t even cry about it. I have a burst of sob, but then it stops. Is it just not worth it to cry over things? Or do I realize that if I go down that path, I may not be able to return.