24 January, 2008

It is 3AM, do you know where your children are?

Another sleepless night, but actually it is not unwelcome. I have been on such a disorganized schedule since Dec. 1st that beings wide awake at 2AM seems almost normal. The difference now is that my thesis has been turned in, graded, an A- thank you very much, and I am now a “master of peace studies”, oh and I wrote the fastest thesis in the peace studies program history! So basically I have nothing pending at this crazy hour and now spend this gift of silence and darkness contemplating life and what lies ahead in my future. I have this renewed sense of freedom again. I am more alive than I have ever been. I feel freer than I ever have. Hell, I am turning 40 in about a month and I have never felt healthier or more balanced in my life. It is time to move on. I know the signs. Little things that previously did not irritate me bug the hell out of me now…like when you know it’s time to leave a relationship, the whole toilet seat thing.

I have applied for 5 different jobs in various places and countries and have heard back from 3 of them, well to be honest only one true “we are interested in finding more about you” email, the other 2 were just “thank you, we have received your information, we’ll let you know if we consider you important enough to email you again”. I am extremely excited about the one possibility though, but will not go on about it because it is hard enough to wait for another reply from the organization without dealing with well-intentioned email asking if I have heard something…

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