12 November, 2006

I'm "nesting" again...

Help. Help. Help me please...I cannot stop "nesting". But wait...do I need help? The phrase "you are nesting again" was commented to me last year by my friend and former roommate Steve. At the time I was in what I call my "organizing mood". I didn't really think about it much at the time, because I was getting ready for my sister's arrival and was just getting the house ready for a visitor, which consisted of cleaning it in its entirety fulfilling some deep embedded theory that a clean house is a happy house, or maybe it was a "what will the neighbors think" mentality.

This "nesting" thought has entered my mind more often lately though because my current roommate has commented on my constant cleaning and rearranging/organizing habits. I mentioned that Steve had called it nesting and it was then agreed that "nesting" was the perfect name for it. I then pondered as to why I nest. It's not ALL the time, but it happens more often than not and it comes in waves during certain times of the month. When I am ovulating maybe the need to prepare for some unforseen arrival of a child from my body overtakes me. When I am feeling down, maybe it's a need to gain back control of my life and this is my way of ensuring that I am on top of things. Maybe I just like things in order? Looking back at my childhood, my mother was always rearranging the furniture and changing things much to the dismay of my father who would prefer it if nothing in his life ever changed, so is it a maternal genetic drive?

What ever the reason, I have accepted the fact that I am a nester and am now proud of it. I realize that there is no reason to fight my strong instinct to control my surroundings when possible. Realizing that my future is unsure and somewhat uncontrollable at this point, being able to control where my tea bags reside and having the option to change their habitat at any given point is comforting. And taking the rice out of it's unattractice plastic package and putting it in an easily accessable jar is not abnormal, no matter what anyone in my household says...

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

From one nester to another...I agree wholeheartedly! Rachel

Pam said...

Wouldn't you like to be a nester too.. (Singing)

Yes I am a nester and I love the name.