09 April, 2017

Shouldn't it be HERsterecrtomy


Sooo, last month, I was at my old stomping grounds, Sen Sok International University Hospital.  No, I didn’t try to recapture my youth again which brought me to this wonderful hospital a few years ago.  For those of you who would like to relive my pain, please click here  My leg, by the way,  has healed up nicely.

No, this time another issue arose…my uterus decided it had had enough of hanging out the vacancy sign for the last 30 years or so and it took matters into its own hands.  It gave away a free room to some smooth muscle cells and fibrous connective tissue that had been loitering around my womb.  Thus a tumor was conceived, awwww…  It hung around -literally, it hung much like this Cambodian JackFruit tree.  (Hint – the tree is my uterus and yep, my favorite  of all time fruits in this country is being represented as my tumor.)

I first noticed the intruder’s presence in July of 2016 when a morning jog had me doubled over with cramping.  I had just started a new exercise routine with undue enthusiasm, so figured I had over done it.  I was in pain for a couple of days and our wonderful staff and kids had a good time with how exercise was hurting mommy.  I laid-off the running for a while and the pain went away.  After that there were times I just felt uncomfortable, nothing to pinpoint, but knowing my body pretty well (we’ve been bestbuds for over 45 years!) I just felt something wasn’t quite right.

But you know how it is, life commences and a visit to the gynecologist was not a top priority -but seriously, is it ever?  It was relatively easy to keep putting off, first I had to find one, then find the time, then blah blah blah, put off easily, but then I started to have lower back pain on my left side.  Not a good thing when I have little ones using my body as a jungle gym.  Then there was my belly which was growing as if I was pregnant.  When the kids started patting my belly saying “mommy has a baby,” it was time to stop procrastinating, so a week before my 49th birthday I went to my appointment and found out about my non-human, free-loading bodily intruder. 


 













In my usual efficient way, I researched all about fibroid tumors and since mine was hanging off my uterus, it would be a simple in and out procedure laparoscopically.  A day in the hospital and back home, easy at that, right?  Made the appointment to have a second ultrasound (the first one was inconclusive as unbeknownst to me, I needed a full bladder) and figured I would have the surgery after the ultrasound.

Well, the 2nd ultrasound showed a much larger mass than previously thought and in a meeting with the doctors, it was determined that I should have a hysterectomy.  I just sat there dumbfounded.  During my 2 week mental preparation for the tumor removal, not once did I allow myself to consider that it would be more.  More invasive and much more expensive.  I questioned having the hysterectomy, as to why to just not remove the tumor and be able to keep my, ahem…female parts.  The reply was pretty much in-my-face “Why? You don’t need them.”  Ouch!  Well, no argument there, but I did insist on keeping my hormone producing ovaries.  I did not want to be dependent on hormone replacements.  The other issue is that it's not really known what causes tumors and if they only remove it, another will probably take it's place, and then another...that's what damn freeloaders do.

After talking out every angle, I was not prepared to have the surgery that day.  Not prepared physically  and certainly not mentally.  Luckily we had repeat volunteer, Jaime, coming to Opot that day so I was able to catch a ride back with him later that day.  I went into my favorite restaurant in the city and just chilled for 3 hours.  Researched a bit, but mostly just came to terms with how I felt about having my uterus and cervix removed.  I KNOW my female parts are not what make me who I am, but it was a little hard to accept that they would be removed, I had had them for years!  I thank you Jaime for listening to me the whole way back to Wat Opot that day...it couldn't have been comfortable to hear so much about the female reproductive system and the surgical process, but I needed to get it out!

A week later I was back and this time more prepared.  I wasn’t worried about the actual surgical procedure as the hospital and doctors are top notch, even with 3 native languages present (French, Khmer and Russian) with English as the common language.  I was taken to my room and left alone for awhile to get unpacked, which I realised after the fact that there really was no need for me to pack clothes since I wound up wearing the wonderful hospital gown the whole 5 days!  I also had my secret stash of an olive baguette, instant noodles and nuts.

Before I knew it, I was gowned up, procedure paid for in advance and headed to my reproductive parts doom.  After I paid for the surgery the nurse glanced at me putting my wallet back into my backpack and stated that it wasn't safe for me to leave my money in my room.  I kind of looked around and said, what do you want me to do with it and she said keep it with you.  I kind of chuckled since I was soon to be doped up on anesthesia and in no way would be able to protect my money in that state.  I went along with it though and once inside the operating room the doctor said, "Why do you have this?" pointing to the wallet beside me.

I pointed to the nurse and said "She told me to bring it."  There was a short Khmer conversation and then the doctor scratched his head and then took out a surgical glove and stretched it over the wallet, then took another glove and put it on the opposite way, then taped it up and wrote my name over the tape (so it would be evident if tampered with) and then proudly showed it to me turning it over like a magician proving that the prop for his next trick was legit.  I just nodded and willed the anesthesia to kick in.

The surgery was performed laparoscopically and I only had 4  small incisions in my belly.  They planned on removing my female junk through the hole in my belly button (they insert a 'bag' into the hole, load it up with all the stuff coming out and then they pull the bag out), but since the tutor was 8cm I 'birthed' it.

I awoke some time later in the recovery room and was pretty groggy and had a bladder pain really strong.  It felt like I needed to pee really really bad!  I was only half-way coherent so when one of the doctors came to me I was trying to tell her that I needed to pee, but since I couldn't really speak, the words came out of my mouth like I was in slow motion.  I was saying "khnoooooooooom throooooooooow caaaaaaaaaaaah chuuuuuuuuuuuw noooooooooooome, I kept trying to say it over and over and it just wouldn't come out right!  It never dawned on me that this was my Russian doctor  not my Cambodian one and she doesn't understand Khmer, and certainly not Khmer coming out of a drugged up american mouth.  After a bit of "What do you want?", "I don't understand." I spurted out "Neeeeeeeeeeeeed toooooooooo Peeeeeeeee."  All the while "speaking whale" like Dori in Finding Nemo.

She assured me that I had a catheter in and that I don't have to get up to go to the bathroom.  I dozed off then and when I awoke again, I still 'had to pee' so bad and since I didn't research the logistics of a catheter, I thought maybe I had to actually pee in the catheter, like it was a funnel or something.  So I commenced trying to 'pee' in my catheter.  Pushing so hard that I'm surprised that I didn't shoot the catheter out!  I thought that maybe I had a mental block as you normally just don't pee in your bed.  Mind over matter, I kept trying to pee!  I summoned the nurse numerous times and the poor guy just kept confirming to me that my catheter was working and he actually lifted it up so I could see the filled pee bag.  I was not convinced though and longingly starred through tear stained eyes at a door at the far end of the recovery room that I just knew led to a bathroom!  I was convinced that when the nurse (who was sleeping in the room) got up to use the toilet, I would get off the bed and squat down on the floor and finally pee!

I fell into a restless sleep hoping each time that I dozed off that my 'mental block' would release and I would 'pee the bed'.  The next morning, when the doctor came in, I clearly and articulately explained that I still needed to pee so bad.  Her explanation which fell on my deaf ears showed the frustration on her face.  Then like a lightbulb, she said, do you have pain pointing to my gut and I said "YES!"  She turned to the nurse and said something that sounded like "Hit her up!" and gloriously a pain killer was injected into my IV and my 'bladder' pain miraculously went away.

Grant it, I didn't remember any of the above until about day 3 in the hospital.  Then the memory came rushing back to me and I was so embarrassed when the nurse and doctor came into my room.  I wanted to apologise but didn't even know where to start, plus it wouldn't seem sincere since every time I thought of it, I would crack up laughing at myself.   I cannot imagine how on earth he and the doctor kept a straight face while I was going on and on that I couldn't pee in my catheter.  My nurse probably took a video and as I type it's going viral on some Cambodian video site!

On day two my appetite came back and the doctor came in saying it was okay for me to eat, but it can only be soup, nothing solid at all.  I said "can I have bread" and she said firmly, "No, nothing solid, only liquid!" I said, okay, I will order some soup...as I glanced down at my bed gown hoping there were no crumbs from the 1/4 olive baguette I had just consumed!  I opted against googling what happens when you eat bread the day after surgery...

My friend Helen graciously brought me enough broth to feed a village of post-op patients so I sipped on that for 2 days.  Then I was allowed some noodle soup, so I pulled out the package of my beloved spicy kimchee noodle and proudly handed it to the nurse.  She brought it back piping hot and I feverously ate it down.  Later that day, the doctor inquired about my food intake and I said, "Yes, I had some noodle soup" and "may I have some more, as I'm hungry again".  I handed her another package (I had brought 10!) and she declared, "oh you cannot have this, nothing spicy."  I hesitated about ratting out my morning nurse, but I wanted some more so bad that I did, stating "Well, they gave me some this morning and I am fine".  She glanced at me and excused herself and I thought "Well, shit!  The last thing I want to do is piss off my nurse when I am bedridden!"  The doctor came back in kind of smiling and said that actually, they replaced my spicy noodle that morning with a plain one as she handed me back my morning noodle package -unopened.

I didn't know whether to be pissed off for being deceived, thankful that the nurses knew what they were doing, or dumbfounded that I hadn't even realised the difference, so I said 'fine' and had some broth without any bread as I slowly sulked.  

The evening of the 4th night I was awoken with sharp pain in my arm where the IV was.  I thought I had just hurt it because I tried to go to the bathroom without the nurse.  The IV (for non-medical readers) is attached to the pump that is plugged into the wall, so I had to do a little thinking.  I had watched the nurses open the machine and take out the tubing from the pump to escort me to the toilet.  I sat looking at it and realised that I could not possibly take it out, hobble to the bathroom, do my business, then hobble back to the bed reattach the tubing into the pump and then feign ignorance when the nurse entered to investigate why the machine was beeping.

So I opted to pull the machine with me as far as the electrical cord would reach and then try to reach the bathroom as far as the tubing would reach.  This failed and in doing so, I probably pulled the needle out of my vein not realising it.  Defeated, I pulled everything back in order and rang the nurse so I could pee.  Later that evening, the nurse came in and put pain killers into the IV bag and I fell asleep and that's when I awoke to the pain in my arm.  I mentioned it to the late night nurse and she rubbed my arm and said it was okay and that I would go home tomorrow and no, she could not take it out.

I contemplated either pulling it out myself because it felt like molten lava was slowly dripping into my arm, but I just didn't have the energy and figured I had caused enough trouble for one patient and sucked it up.  The next morning the nurse came in and changed the IV with another full bag!  I said, look at my arm, which was red and swelling and she said the doctor will come in soon, I said, can you get her now please (with tears in my eyes for added affect).  About 10 minutes later, the doctor arrived all gleeful stating that I could go home as soon as the IV bag was empty.  I said, "But look at my arm!" and she glanced at it and then rushed around to the other side of the bed and said quite matter of factly, "You can be finished now." as she removed the IV from my arm.

With my stomach half the size from when I went in, I was verbally released.  I was given pain killers along with the antibiotic, but since I had not had any painkillers for about 12 hours when my IV somehow came out of my vein, I opted out of them.  I was then officially signed out, given a detailed bill of my stay and released uterus-less and cervix-less back into society. 

This blog post is overdue as tomorrow it will have been 4 weeks to the day from surgery.  I came back to Opot and obeyed the strict 'no lifting anything over 10 lbs' post-op instructions for a month. Although in typing this, I realised that it's only been 4 weeks, instead of five, soo...I obeyed the instruction for 3 weeks instead of four, oops.  I have felt great since coming home and had no problems or pain whatsoever.

The kids, staff and a few village women are/were infatuated with the holes in my stomach, though, as a couple showed me their C-section scars...I explained to the girls what the surgery consisted of and the why and how of it all.  A few of them explained to the others, to the best of their ability, as to what happened to me.  Probably translated to something like the home of the baby was torn down and removed...


22 March, 2017

Being a foreigner in a foreign land.

For the past 6 years I have lived in Cambodia.  For 5 months prior, I lived in Nepal.  The two experiences are non-comparable.  I cannot say “I know about” Nepal’s culture, its people or their traditions.  I can say I learned about the wonderful family I lived with and why they had 30 vulnerable children in their care.  I can talk about the school those children went to and how the particular family I lived with celebrated holidays and went about their lives.  I cannot possibly know about the neighbor down the dirt road, about the hundreds of other children who attended the school after only 5 months of living there.

After 6 years, I feel I have a much better grasp of Cambodian culture in the area I live in.  I have a small grasp of the language, drive to the local market and take the kids to their hospital appointments.  I’m not now and will never be considered ‘local’.  No more than a Cambodian who was born in the United States is looked at as American to most of the population.  This is okay to me as I understand human nature.  I am accepted, though.  If I walk down the road, the village children call me ‘mommy’, which is seemingly my name now.  Younger women call me ‘bong srey’ (big sister) and in the market I’m not as likely to get cheated over price as I was 4 years ago.  I’m part of the scenery now, I’m same same but different.

I used to know all the children in my care inside and out, but in 2016 we received 16 new kids and so far this year, we have 4 more.  That’s 20 new children to get to know and understand.  Twenty children who have their own sordid backgrounds, internal issues, behavioral problems, and trust issues.  Twenty children who have come from different family situations.  If I were to lump them into the phrase “we have 20 new kids”, I would be giving you a statistic.  An accurate, but enormously misrepresented statistic.

This is what I feel happens with those who come and go (even frequently) in any foreign country, they believe they ‘know’ the culture, the people.  Don’t judge a country on what you read in Travelocity or on any website or book.  Statistics are not people.  Someone could come spend a year abroad in my home town of Kansas and they may leave thinking they know American culture.  They will have a grasp of a minute group of people and their way of life, but this will differ greatly if they lived on my sister’s farm or a house in the city.  Even in a small Kansas town; what if you spent a year in a home of a Trump supporter vs. a home that is based in moral and ethical reality.

Conscientious travel makes one aware of different people, culture, religion, etc. but do not confuse that with ‘knowing’ the place.  It does not make one aware of the needs of the people. Travelers heart’s strings can easily be pulled.  Does the tuktuk driver have an old beaten up tuktuk because he’s poor or does he not buy a new one because he makes more money from driving a beat up one because people who think he’s poor pay him better?  

The idea that an outsider can come into a foreign land and ‘access’ what they deem inappropriate, unhealthy, cruel, abusive, etc. without a very long-term commitment and willingness to move outside of your box is completely irresponsible.  It’s like being appalled at seeing dog meat being roasted in a shop…but having no problem whatsoever eating a roasted chicken sandwich an hour later.  

It is irresponsible to access a situation without all the facts, but that is what happens over and over in “poor countries”.  That is many times what makes up statistics, such as the children in my care.  They are institutionalised in the eyes of many; not beautiful individual souls with their own stories to tell, but a number in a book, article or website…and in turn the magical place they call home is just another negative statistic, an institution.  A place not one of those people have ever spent time in.  We are a blurb, a 'not-of-the-most' in phrases such as "most orphanages are bad".

Statistics like to leave out words to make their case plausible.  Such as instead of 

"Eighty percent of children in orphanages more than likely have at least one abusive, neglectful, desperate, uncaring, unloving and/or alcoholic parent", they just say 

"Eighty percent of children in orphanages have at least one parent." 

Straight and swaying the point they want to make, loose the important words and you have built a case for the horrors of orphanages.  Tug at those healthy foreign heart strings!  If it tears your heart out to think of your children being taken away from you and put into an institution, then the statistic has done it's job.  If it didn't tug at your heart strings, then maybe, just maybe, your children would be better off in my home or maybe you can relate to this phrase:

"One hundred percent of children living in private boarding schools have at least one parent."  hmmmmm.....

How many people can look past the aesthetic differences of ‘the other’ and see genuine people.  How many visitors can ignore the unusual house and see the happy people inside.  How many realize that lower income is not a prerequisite for unhappiness and/or unhealthiness.  A child napping on a cool tile floor in the heat of the day does not mean that child does not have a bed, or a home, or loving caregivers.  Have you ever tried to sleep on a soft mattress in the heat of the day with no AC?  If you had, trust me, you would opt for the tile.

Look, live and feel before you judge.  Is that child a ‘poor orphan’ living in an ‘awful orphanage’ or is it a child given a second chance at life and this chance includes happiness.  Has that child in that ‘institution’ been torn from his biological parents arms, or did a caring neighbor call the Village Chief who then called the local Social Services agency who then called a sociologist who then did a family assessment and decided that the child should be removed from the family home because of any number of reasons.  Reasons that exist in each and every country on the globe. Reasons that exist in homes regardless of their financial situation.  Reasons that exist because there are just people in the world who should not be allowed to raise their children (or any children for that matter).

The next time you travel, read a statistic, view a documentary, hear some other traveler spew their ignorance, I challenge you to see the positive instead of the negative.  SEE the man.  SEE the child.  SEE the house.  SEE the situation.  Is that dirt or chocolate on that ‘poor child’s’ face? The dog roasting in a shop is income to the people who raised it, much like your chicken.  SEE the people who look different than you with joy and curosity, not with an air of sadness on your face or in your disposition, and for those situations that deem it, look not with pity, but with compassion.


Leave your judgement at home until you are ready to be present and open minded in another place for a very long time and those statistics, take them with a grain of salt.

25 January, 2017

Nature or Nurture; that is the question.

I’m more than a bit moved by the response I had when I posted this photo of me and Srey Kah, our newest watopotian on Facebook. 


This has been such an emotional start to 2017.  January has not always produced the best start to a new year.  This wisp of a child put the icing on the cake for me.  A beautiful child whose biological family didn't want.  I am so tired of neglected kids, babies!  Children that get thrown away, when there are those who are begging to have the opportunity to have one more hug from their own. One more hug, one more kiss, and one more conversation, one more laugh…before they left this world.


One more laugh with my father, sigh, how amazing would that be?  He was extremely sarcastic.  It’s no wonder that my whole family has the same sense of humor.  The stories we have!  Laughter is the best medicine.  I smile freely.  Just a facial movement that happens so naturally that I didn’t realize how much a smile can mean when you are given a child that doesn’t.  



Srey Kah didn’t smile for 4 days.  FOUR days without a grin, a smirk, a laugh.  When she finally did, it was like, “yeah, everything will be okay now.”  How many many people cannot smile because of the situation they are in?  How many children cannot or have never known what that means.  For someone who was raised with laughter, it is almost inconceivable that there are those who do not. 



Depending on what era you were born in, or what news channel you subscribe to, you can believe you are a product of nature or nurture or a mixture of both.  I have meet Srey Kah’s father and paternal grandmother.  Both smiled (as they were giving up their flesh and blood).  When Srey Kah smiled, it wasn't only with her mouth, she laughed out loud.  Other than a grunt and a cry, that was the first sound she had made.  And it was our much loved animals who were responsible.  Ben the dog and Tido the cat got extra treats that day!

My genes were infused with an innate sense of humor, which was made stronger by the environment my parents created.  My genetics also gave me gangly long arms which I finally grew into and thin fine hair, which I still battle.  My genetics gave me a pretty good mixture of both sides of my family.  I was told time and again while growing up “oh you look just like your dad” (not necessarily something an insecure teen wants to hear), but then “oh you look so much like your mom” as I got older (and love to hear).


The children in my care look like their biological parents but many act like me.  For many, I have enhanced their already predisposed level of sarcasm, and for others, I have respected their need to have a more subdued caregiver (which is hard for me).  I am constantly amazed by the love most do not hold inside.  For the hugs that come out of nowhere and sometimes hold on for a bit longer than I am comfortable with.  That is something I  did not have growing up.  I knew I was loved, that wasn’t ever even a thought in my mind, but the actual physical aspect of it, was not nurtured in me.


It wasn’t until I attended my Masters in Peace program in Austria that I first encountered unconditional hugging and realized I felt really uncomfortable with it.  I wrote a paper on it, (you can’t bring about peace, until you find it within yourself), about how it felt to be hugged by everyone all the time.  Seriously, sometimes I wanted to say “Shit, I will see you in an hour, no need to hug me!”.   After contemplation, I realize I associated hugs with a physical relationship.  Many times a prelude to sex.  So to be hugged by men, was awkward.  I didn’t want to have sex with my classmates! 

I had to learn to hug, to enjoy the platonic feeling of another human being in my arms.  To overcome the feeling of it being wrong, until I could give a hug back without feeling like I was ‘leading someone on’.  I hugged a naked man and a naked woman in one night and only felt slightly uncomfortable.  That is true growth – European style! 

As I emerged in life, there were and continue to be so many opportunities to leave my comfort zone; to be a part of something that either challenges or enhances my natural or nurtural instincts. 


When my dad died, a certain ‘standoffishness’ went away.  I was all of a sudden thrown into a situation where life slapped me square in the face.  A f-ing hard defibrillating life-lesson right to the heart that I can still feel today.  My dad’s sudden death jolted my heart and ripped out a chunk that will never fully grow back.  As my heart slowly started beat again, that innate ability to say goodbye to my family without so much as a glance, seemed a bit uncaring even though it never had before.   In Europe, I grew to respect the physical closeness of my friends, and now I was able to become closer to my family by a natural –albeit painful- life experience.   I lost the ability to walk away without showing that I care.  And a further process allows me to freely say “I love you” without feeling awkward. I can give and receive firms hug without feeling like I’m intruding on personal space (most of the time).


I have the utmost respect for Miss Srey Kah and am okay with the fact that it took her 2 weeks to the day to smile at me.  I still am a bit too loud and a bit too physical for her taste.  She doesn’t know when I grin and poke her, I am showing love.  She was born with the ability to be loved, but because of her circumstance, she doesn’t know it.  She has been through more in her 2 years of life than many will experience in a lifetime. I was in my late teens when I first experienced the death of a loved one, she was 12 months.  She also has overcome every odd life has thrown at her in the 2 weeks she has been with us.  It took me 35 years…

It’s not only my unconditional love for the kids in my care; it is my indescribable respect for them.  I wouldn’t be the woman I am today without the nurturing from my parents, the chance to grow up with siblings (for better or worse) and the closeness of extended family.  And I would not have continued to grow as a person without the support of family and friends, whom I have known along my path.

That is what the children have here an unconventional large family complete with parents, siblings, friends and extended family.  A big (and at times messy) multi-cultural, multi-ethnic, multi-religious family!

This is what all humans deserve, a reason to smile, regardless of where in the world they so happened to be born. 


Can it really be made any more clear?  

Photo courtesy of my friend Scott http://www.scottrotzoll.com/ (who got Srey Kah to smile at him first!)

15 January, 2017

Tangy Butt Nuts and other pieces of sh#*.

My life now is extremely demanding.  Most days I am exhausted.  Emotionally, mentally and physically, but mostly emotionally.  And then there’s all the shit.  Literally, I mean shit.  The (usually) brown substance that emerges from the bowels of sweet toddlers; beautiful –full of shit- toddlers.  It’s all the time,  “Mommy, Likha is stinky”….”Mommy, Somnang pooped on the floor.” Mommy, Mommy, Mommy, poop, poop, poop.


We have 3 little ones who are not able to control their posterior and out from those sweet little cheeks come the rectum warriors.  I (along with Sophia) have to deal with it all day every day.  Body boulders in the morning, sewer serpents in the afternoon, fudge babies at dusk and tushy tots before bed.  Our toddling poopers have a sense of humor as well.  It seems they hold it in until just when I sit down to eat.  Absolutely nothing doing 30 minutes before or after, no, there’s something symbolically synonymous about my butt finding the comfort of the kitchen chair and their butt exuding fanny fudge.

It's not just the ones in diapers, though.  Take today for example, I had to help another small child release his stinkers into the toilet.  And when it was about to happen, it's not like the child sends me a memo ahead of time, I sprinted into the nearest bathroom with the child hanging mid-air arms length away and just made it in time.  A big sigh of relief, but then I glance down and notice my skirt had graced the calm vortex of the diaper soaker, the crapsters dungeon, a place where no woman's clothing should ever ever touch down.

I now have worn shit.




It has gotten so bad that I have taken to paying a child to change a diaper.  In a country where the poorest of the poor make less than $1.00 a day, I will pay up to .75 cents (depending on the stench) for someone, ANYONE to get rid of the lovely lumps which having traveled so far and finally liberated themselves from the confines of a little colon, have emerged and begun to settle into their new padded home.

“It can’t be that bad” some of you will say.  “You could not be more wrong”, say I.   “It really doesn’t affect your life and the lives around you” others will say.  “I am willing to bet a days worth of smelly pebbles that you could not be more wrong” said the others around me.  There is now a fine of 500 Khmer Riel (12 and a half cents) that I must pay for every time I bring up anything remotely sounding like poop.  One thousand riel (.25 cents) if it’s a blatant description of a screaming mimi.  I have lost so much money, I no longer count.  Sophia has lost her fair share, but I’m definitely in the lead.  Some meals I find myself unable to talk for fear of spilling the beans (so to speak).

You can ask Josh, our regular weekend volunteer.  One day I butt (no pun intended) called him.  As he responded with “are you there?”, “hello”, he then heard kids at play and then loud and clear, my voice talking about someone’s dumper crying brown tears and realized the call was not meant for him and he quietly hung up.  When I noticed I had inadvertently called him and the call had lasted 23 seconds, I just sighed knowing he had overhead bits of about how we could convert a waterbottle into a portable toilet for Somnang (our infamous anywhere-pooper). I promise, Josh, we were joking!


You think this little patootie is cute…come walk a mile in my shoes, friend, a mile in my shoes.